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quick message for my haters😚 i’m doing well if you’re wondering !#confidence #swimweek #Runway #modeling #bikini

1 of 1 baby don’t forget it !!👏🔥#confidence #selflove #bodyimage

just a CEO handlin business💼🔥 #Runway #swimsuit #model

to think i was bullied in high school for being flat chested too😂🫡

which sunglasses should i wear w/ this fit?!! 1, 2, or 3?!🕶️☀️🌴 @Quay Eyewear Inc EATSSS👏🔥 #quayaustralia #grwm #sunglasses #haul #miami #vacation #quaypartner

he’ll see my stories😌

sos i’m blonde😭😭😭😭 not what i was looking for lol fml🫠 do we hate it

on monday june 16th i got the worst possible phone call you could ever receive. a phone call my family and i have all feared the possibility of becoming a reality for the last 15 years now. i’m so heartbroken and devastated to say my sweet and loving brother Andreas has passed away to a drug overdose, after almost 2 years clean.😔🩶 i really don’t have the words right now and i’m shaking while writing this, but all i could say is i love him so very much and i’m going to miss him every single day of my life. my heart hurts knowing the severity of his internal pain and sadness that he was experiencing daily. on the outside you could never tell, he was fun, funny, loving, caring, handsome, had the biggest heart you could ever imagine, and helped everyone else around him. but i wish so badly he gave that love and worthiness to himself. i wish so badly he could see himself the same way we all saw him. unfortunately, he battled with this disease for 15 long years and was a huge part of my childhood and pain, but i felt like i could never really open up or share this part of my family’s life. i never saw him as an addict or judged him for his flaws and struggles, but rather saw him as a loving, soft, sensitive, strong, and lost soul who always wanted more for himself. he didn’t want to be in this cycle of pain. he didn’t want to suffer, but he also didn’t know how to carry on another 24 hours of his current mind and reality. mental health and addiction takes over your entire being. it controls your every waking thoughts, and i won’t stay silent on these issues anymore. in fact, this has given me more purpose and drive to make a positive impact and change and carry out his story and legacy. the only peace i’ve been able to find this week, has been reading some of his journal entries and seeing the severity of the pain he was going through. the self depreciating thoughts and fears he struggled with that took over his body. i now know he is at peace and no longer suffering. i promise to always make you proud. until i see you again🪽rest easy my sweet brother, i love you so much and hope you know just how loved you are. you will always be my hero.❤️ #addiction #MentalHealth #recovery

Replying to @Missy💋 sue me ok!!! it was blonde i swear😭😭😂 #blondehair #hairtok #hairstyle #hairtutorial

no coincidence that all flights take off from a runway💅✈️ #Runway #runwaywalk #airplanes #airportlife

life is crazy🥺🥲 T minus 1 hour till i walk in @cupshe_official show!!!👙 5pm EST tune in besties!! #miami #model #modelwalk #Runway #swimsuit

shoutout @tarte cosmetics for this iconic shirt😂💕 #hypeman #ceoofconfidence #confidence #selflove

i fear @JSX has changed me😂

day 2 MSW fit check!!!💕🌴 @𝓝 #miamibeach #miami #swimweek #curvemodel #modeling #fitcheck #outfitinspo

the guy behind me also approves this message😂

hi aspen :)

my biggest flex tbh

wish i could hear your voice just one more time. one more hug. one more i love you.🥺🪽 my older brother struggled with drug addition for the last 15 years, and recently relapsed 2 weeks ago.❤️‍🩹 i didn’t see him as his struggles. i saw him as a beautiful and loving soul, that was kind, giving, selfless, strong, and resilient— and yet battled so much internally. wounds that no one could see from the outside. he was someone that would give the shirt off his back to help the next person. he taught us all the valuable lesson of showing up for others and helping those around you. Andreas, you touched more lives than you know. your story and legacy will live on, and i promise to always share it with the world. ❤️ gone way too soon, but never forgotten. i’m changed forever.🪽 i love you

CEO with a message for you today!!!🫡 time to unlock that delusion confidence baby🔥 #ceoofconfidence #delusionalconfidence #delulu #selflove #mindset #peptalk #selflove

the same week i got the hardest news of my life with my brother sudden passing, i also got the biggest career opportunity to be the face of @abercrombie Fall denim🥺 it was one of the hardest things i’ve ever had to do mentally and emotionally to pull myself out of such a dark place to do this, but i know my brother would be so proud🥺❤️ never keep dreaming, even when life gets extremely hard🤍🙏 love you guys